Dave the Nomad 🇨🇦<p><span class="h-card"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/actuallyautistic" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>actuallyautistic</span></a></span> This bout of fixation has also come with some new feelings that I'm struggling to label.</p><p>I'm.. disappointed. Maybe ashamed. Upset with myself, at least, that I'm in this place again.</p><p>Especially because the contrast between how _well_ I was doing in January and now is so stark.</p><p>In January, I was eating well. I was exercising every morning, going walking or cycling every day. I bought a bike that now just sits collecting dust because I was feeling so well and so confident that I was on track.</p><p>Then, somehow, not particularly suddenly and over the course of two months, it has come crashing down to the point where I'm eating very little, struggling to sleep, and doing only the absolute bare minimum to survive on a daily basis.</p><p>I thought I was doing so well. I thought being aware of these things would help me see them coming and stop them. Or at least mitigate them.</p><p>Yet I'm here again.</p><p>I know, I know - don't beat myself up. It's not me, it's the way my brain is wired. This is another learning experience.</p><p>I'm just venting, and sharing my experience in hopes others can relate and understand. </p><p>It's fucking hard though.</p><p><a href="https://autisticnomad.social/tags/ActuallyAutistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ActuallyAutistic</span></a> <a href="https://autisticnomad.social/tags/Neurodivergent" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Neurodivergent</span></a> <a href="https://autisticnomad.social/tags/ADHD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ADHD</span></a> <a href="https://autisticnomad.social/tags/AuDHD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AuDHD</span></a></p>